Do You

Orignially Written 10/04

You pseudo-neo-soul
Wanna be hip-hop
Tryin to be hot
Striving for something your not
Your second hand clothes don’t give you soul
Only little holes
In you attire
That mirror the holes in your soul
You can’t fill those up by trying to be someone else
You ain’t me nor are you the Mighty Mos Def
You the almost always left
Behind
The cutting edge
You follow closely
Trying to guess the new trend
Never a trend setter
Your soul remains fettered
Unable to grow
Cause all you know
Is what is currently off the chain
But you fail to see the stains
You run from the pain
And seek out a means other then the supernatural
To maintain
But that all fails to provide you
With piece of mind
The sad part is that you’re not blind
You just live with your two eyes closed
Your third eye has glaucomaFrom the lack of use and emotional abuse
You seek a truce
With the status-quo
Never seeking to understand what you don’t know
Each attempt you take towards success
Leaves you out of breath
And one step closer to death
Don’t let it be in vain
Don’t deny your pain
Embrace it
Face it
Taste it
Own it
Enjoy it
Cause the pain means you’re alive
Pain means you’re in God’s eyes
God just wants acknowledgement
God just wants recognition
And a place for him in your vision
Of who you are, were, and plan to be
And whoever that is
It is OK and beautiful
As long as you ain’t trying to be me.

Faith, Hope & Love

CA

Sin, Repentance & Redemption

A lie or a misunderstanding?
I board a train toward my downtown hotel,
The question dances in my head as the tracks
“click-clack”
Did I lie?
Yes.
Why did I lie?
I was scared.
But scared of what?
“click-clack”
Scared of someone being mad at me,
scared of loosing something that is a part of me,
scared of someone being right about the way that they see me.
“Next stop, University City-Big Bend. Doors will open to my left.”
“click-clack”
But I didn’t feel like I was lying until I was challenged on it.
I didn’t lie!
Or am I lying now?
Lying to myself
To protect the original lie
“click-clack”
Repentance
Lord God!
Jesus!
Please Forgive Me!
I repent!
Wash me clean!
Make me whole again!
Restore my purity!
Come and abide in me!“Next stop, 8th and Olive”
I exit to the left,
And re-enter reality.
What have I learned?
I am indeed a sinner.
The devil is a liar!
And he will take advantage of me,
Whenever I feel doubt or fear,
I have lost touch with God.
That’s when Satan has access,
To use me as his tool.
He did it today and I played the fool
But I returned to my hotel
Forgiven and redeemed
And now I pen this lesson
For others to receive.


Faith, Hope & Love


CA